Autumn 2015 Goals Update

Posted October 6, 2015 by Briana in Personal / 8 Comments

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This post is the one that I’ve been struggling to write for a week and a half. It’s going to be honest because transparency is important to me. I’m also a little afraid to hit publish.

Unlike my post about depression, the shortcomings I will outline are entirely up to me. I’m sharing my problems because I need you lovely people to help hold me accountable to achieving these goals.

Back in August, before I moved, I outlined a series of goals I wanted to accomplish this fall. The goals seemed simple enough. I was more than confident that I’d have them fulfilled by October.

Here’s everything I’ve accomplished thus far:

  1. Publish Blood and Water
  2. Take another trip to Chicago
  3. Write the first draft of Reflections
  4. Throw or attend a Halloween party
  5. Be featured on a podcast
  6. Break even on book sales with Blood and Water
  7. Write a spooky short story
  8. Audition for a play
  9. Survive Dragon Con
  10. Finish Twitter for Writers blog post series

That’s it, you guys. 2/10. In short… no bueno. I am not a happy camper.

If you know me at all, you know I loathe standing still. I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but my lack of progress toward these goals has me feeling weak. I’m low in self-esteem.

The goal I’m the most ashamed about not reaching yet is the publication of Blood and Water. In spite of how busy I’ve been, I can’t help feeling like I’ve let some people down. Of course, I am actively working toward completing it. I’ve almost finished my second round of edits. And my completion of number six is contingent on my completion of number one, so… I’m just thinking out loud.

I digress.

I’ve felt bad about myself for a few weeks because I still have a long way to go. Still, I think writing this post has helped a little bit. What I’m trying to say is this: I could use some encouragement. Also, if you feel like you’re not accomplishing as much as you could be, you’re not alone.

And autumn isn’t over! So, yeah. There’s that.

Don’t count me out just yet.

What words of wisdom do you have for me? What are you feeling down and out about lately?

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8 responses to “Autumn 2015 Goals Update

  1. If I may be so bold…that list of goals seems like an awful lot to try to pack into just three months, and that’s discounting something so as disrupting as moving. We moved in spring 2014, and it bollixed my writing-related plans for two months — and we only moved about three miles within the same town. I think you may have tried to do too much, and now I think you’re being too hard on yourself.

  2. Nicole L'autore

    BRIANA! You are doing SO MUCH. Don’t be so hard on yourself. I can relate to almost every single word, though. Especially the “letting people down” bit. I’ve been there. Well, I’m actually there right now. Don’t forget to celebrate your little victories, like, um, FINISHING a whole NOVEL. That’s huge! This whole thing is a crazy up and down journey and the discouragement you’re feeling is just another step towards the finish line. 🙂

    Do you plan on writing Reflections during NaNoWriMo this year? It may be a good idea to take a break from Blood and Water so you can feel refreshed when getting back to your edits. (Although you may have already done this.)

    See you around!

    • You’re right, Nicole! I need to do more in the way of acknowledging and celebrating my accomplishments. I am almost finished with BLOOD AND WATER (for real this time) and am definitely looking forward to starting REFLECTIONS in November.

  3. Don’t rush the book. I’d rather wait for something that is polished than read it early and be disappointed.
    Encouragement and motivation are fleeting. They can pump you up at night, but they can’t wake you up in the morning when you want to crawl back into bed. No. What you need is discipline. Get to work every day, whether you feel like it or not. Keep to a schedule. Push yourself. Encouragement will not cross the things off your to do list. Discipline will.

  4. Douglas B Wimmer

    Briana, I’ve been exactly where you are. I’ve promised people I’d be finished with a book on an exact date. I even Tweeted it. Rather loudly I might add, in an effort to have the Twitterverse hold me accountable for finishing it when I’d said I’d finish it. It was devastating to me emotionally when that deadline came and went. I watched author friends publish (both traditionally and self-pub) and I still sat there with a not-ready-for-publication MS wondering what I was doing wrong.
    I’ll tell you from experience, that if I had pushed that book and shoved it out into the world on my self-appointed deadline… it would have been a disaster. The improvements to the story, characters, pacing that I have done since my failed publication date have made a huge difference in the quality of the book. In all honesty, while I may have been able to say “I PUBLISHED A BOOK” had I hit that deadline, it wouldn’t have been a book I am as proud of as the one I have in my hands right now to shop to pubs.

    So… here’s the TL;DR: It’s better to have missed a deadline in order to make something more amazing. It doesn’t mean you failed. It means you’ve succeeded in knowing your book wasn’t quite ready… yet. 🙂